darlin, i know. i know it is frightening. not everyone has to stay, though. I am not going to promise you that everyone you love will stay forever, because that would be a false promise and I don’t think you’d even believe me.
one of the most important things I have ever learned, and have to keep relearning when I make new friends or grow an interest in someone, is that not everyone stays - they stay as long as they can, as long as they should, but they don’t stay a minute longer. when we leave, we leave. when they leave, they leave. I have had to learn to set people free.
But don’t for one second think that this is bad for you - that being afraid he isn’t going to stay should make you leave - you stay. You stay for as long as you can and should and don’t stay for a minute longer. then set yourself free.
but not everyone leaves. not everyone packs their bags and walks out the door. not everyone leaves without goodbye. not everyone hurts. not everyone will break your heart.
i dont know how to comfort you - i dont know how to make you not afraid - but use this fear - use it and be honest with him. say, “im afraid” trust him. trust yourself.
no, darlin’, this isn’t bad. i am sorry i could not give you more.
What does it mean to love if it never lasts?
What does it mean to stand for something,
if it just breaks me in the end?
MONDAY: Low of 86 and partly cloudy with a chance of meeting an old friend again on the street and thinking about them for the rest of the day.
TUESDAY: 83% chance of having a restless night’s sleep and not knowing whether to call him. should you call him? it pours.
WEDNESDAY: Showers clear up…